of 10 more weeks!

Happy Eid everyone!!! I know I'm about 12 days too late of wishing you all Selamat Hari Raya. But I've been pretty busy lately. Plus, what do you expect? It's raya! I didn't brought along my laptop with me balek kampung. And even if I did, mane ade wifi :p And then, right after raya I came back to work with workload yang menimbun. Had to finish it by Thursday as my family and I went to Tioman on Friday! It was our first official family trip since I got married. And it's D.r R's first trip with ze family so he's we're kindda nervous :p hahaha!

Anyhoo, I'm proudly to say that I get to puasa penuh this year!! *poms-poms* It wasn't easy I tell you. I kept on telling hubby I now understand how he and every other guys feel. Penat ok puasa 30 hari straight non stop! I salute you hubby! :D

And as for Raya goes, nothing much differ from the previous years. Except for the fact that I have a hubby now! :p They celebrate it a tad different from how my family does it. I mean, everyone in Muar knows each other and they do come and visit you at home for Raya. (Yes, saya jakun kene Raya macam tu ok? :p) And everyone knows who I am! And I know no one -.-" I guess that's the price you pay when you marry the first grandchild of the family. (Just imagine the pressure of bringing the first great grandchild to this world!) *hyperventilates* :p

This year we Raya-ed at JB first before heading back to Muar on the second day. Couldn't stay longer in JB because D.r R has to work on the next day! :(( And looking at our schedule, don't think we'll be able to go and visit our friends during this Raya period. boo-hoo! :( Takpelah, next year we'll go to everyone's house to kutip duet raya for our lil munchkin! :p

I just love this picture of us eventho it's only a test shot :p

 

The way to pose to hide your huge belly! :p

 

How my belly really looks like :p

 

Besar kan my tummy??! But seriously, if I don't look in the mirror, I swear to God I sometimes still forget that I'm pregnant! *faints* haha. You would think being this big won't make you forget that you're pregnant. But in my case, I still do!

As for our lil miracle's progress, we've officially hit the week 30 mark! :D Can't believe we're three quarter of the way already! Another 10 weeks to go! 12 weeks at most, and hopefully 8 weeks at least. You're not coming out of me till you hit term okay baby? *no-no* :p

We slept at my in laws last night after our trip back from Tioman. And hubby was already in lala-land while I finish off my work (ye, time cuti pun kene keje ye. Tapi tah paper sebab in the end I can't send my work sebab my work mail is full and the file is too big for Yahoo mail!) Anyways, after finishing up my work, I was already as fresh as the morning breeze. I can't sleep! I was tired and all but I ended up starring at the ceiling forcing myself to sleep.

So I got up, look at my baby's clothes pile and decided to nicely fold them and put it in it's basket. So I opened the packaging and unfold each piece of onesies before folding it back properly (the way I want it to be :p) and put it nicely in the basket. And it took me ages to finish folding all the onesies coz I kept on aww-ing at each piece! I mean, it's for real. For real for real that I'm bringing new human being to this world. And I feel even more surreal that it's actually our baby. Half of me and half of D.r R. Like seriously?? Macam tak percaya okay!

Just look at the onesies! How can it not make you heart melt? :D

 

(And owh, before you start making speculation of baby's gender, I just have to burst your bubble :p MIL bought both gender specific onesies even before we found out the gender. So ade both baby girl and baby boy's onesies and mittens! :p)

It feels like yesterday we were talking about having kids (mase ni belum kawen and yes, memang gatal :p haha!) and it feels like yesterday we were trying to conceive. It feels like yesterday when we found out we were pregnant. And it truly feels like yesterday when we were told that we might have lost the baby (yes, we were told that we've lost the baby early in the pregnancy. And it was the longest 24 hours we've ever have to endure our whole life). And surely feels like yesterday when we saw your heart beating on the monitor. And from that moment onwards, we were the happiest-most-blessed couple on earth ever. I could not thank Allah enough for giving me and D.r R this baby.

And now, we're counting down to 10 weeks before we finally get to hold our lil miracle! I honestly can't wait. Hubby too (Sebab die nak menang bet cakap our baby will weigh 4 kilos -.-") haha!

Just 10 more weeks sayang. Mommy and daddy really really can't wait to see you!! We pray everyday that you'll be healthy and sempurna sifat. But if challenges come your way early on life, we hope that you'll be just as strong as we are to face it together okay sayang? And we want you to know that there is absolutely nothing that could make us love you less. Our love towards you grows immensely as each day passes by.
 

Baby's scans compilation! And there's a few more to come! :D

 
Can't wait to see you lil munchkin! :)

p/s: Please don't weigh more than 3.9 kilos! mommy tanak daddy menang bet okay? Team mommy kan? :p

pp/s: Kalau nak team daddy jugak, mommy tanak bangun tengah malam bagi susu. Suruh daddy yang buat ok! :p
 
ppp/s: Daddy, I already have enough onesies and mittens. I need more booties please. And cute sleeping pants. Can you pretty pretty please bawak mommy pegi shopping? :D And owh, she needs a new chanel handbag as well while you're on it :p

fly fly fly

Oh my my. Where did the time go? It felt like just yesterday I was busy preping for my wedding (to now my amazing husband). It feels like it was just yesterday Ninie and I went back to JB for raya (mama and papa was performing their Umrah during that time last year!) And truly I do feel like it was just yesterday I peed on the stick and finding out that I'm carrying an heir of D.r R's

So how long has it really been? Well, it must have been quite a long time since our wedding day. And it's definitely been a while since our baby was just the size of a poppyseed! He/She (I'm not revealing until after the birth of our lil munchkin! :p) is definitely no longer a poppyseed size baby. Nor is he/she a quietly sleeping baby.

Alhamdulillah, our little miracle has started to do kicks, punches and swimming around the amniotic fluid. And oh boy does he/she loves moving around and poke me all over the place! And to be honest, as annoying as every kick sometimes and everytime the baby decides to use my tiny bladder as his/her pillow to sleep on, I am gratefully enjoying every second of it. Alhamdulillah, our bond becomes stronger everyday :) Tho I just wish that D.r R would be around more to be apart of this amazing journey.

Time surely doesn't wait for anyone. We've been so busy with work that sometimes we just forget to stop for a bit and appreciate every little that has happened in our life. With the presence of our lil miracle, I learn to take each day as it comes, and to always reflect back of what that day meant to me (it's the baby's bedtime story :p)

I'm not going to promise to update the blog frequently. I suck at keeping promises anyways :p But I do know that I won't stop writing just because I'm busy at work or with my life. Coz I know that once the baby comes, I will be obsessing over him/her all day round. Definitely won't be updating ze blog that often! :p

But anyways, Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to my fellow muslims. Alhamdulillah, so far I have been fasting full (thank you sayang for cooperating! Tho I do wish that you won't steal so much of water leaving me all thirsty! :p). And to those responsible of paying the zakat, please don't forget of doing so! Alhamdulillah, D.r R payed our half earlier today. And he said that "nanti next year daddy bayar untuk baby skali ok?" *heart melts a thousand times!* :p

I am indeed looking forward to finish my fasting full this year, InsyaAllah. But if it happens that I cannot tahan, I won't be so selfish and jeopardize the health of our baby :)

And owh yes, welcome third trimester!! *poms-poms* See, I told ya time flies really fast! I'll be starting my third trimester in just a few days! Yes, I can do this! *pump fist in the air* :p But please baby, jangan bagi mommy too much back pain ok? Other than that, I'm okay. You can bring it on! :p

Singapore, our second babymoon :)

Home, selfie :p

 

p/s: Mommy loves you so much lil munchkin! :)

pp/s: Mommy and daddy hope you'll love the name that we've picked out for you! :B

of life changing news

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.

My post was two months ago. And a lot has happened since then. To those who followed by instagram must already know the news by now ;) Don't worry, I'm not trying to hide anything or what so ever. I just haven't had the time to update my blog (well, more like I'm not trying to make time to update my blog :p)

I think it come to no surprise what happens after a couple gets married right? :p Alhamdulillah, my husband and I are officially expecting a baby! :D Sorry for not breaking this news much earlier, but D.r R and I wanted to wait until we enter the second trimester (yes, I am already that far along in the pregnancy! :D)

When I first found out that I'm pregnant, I was already way over one week late. And no, I wasn't expecting to get a postive result (because I've already peed so many times before on the stick and it says a big fat negative). So I was just feeling upset because of the outcome. But the thing is, I still have that digital stick that I haven't used. So on that very fine Wednesday morning before getting ready for work, I just pull the thing out, and said to myself, "what the heck" and did what I'm supposed to (with a thought in mind that I'll get a result of "not pregnant").

So imagine my surprise when it didn't say that. I mean, the stick did not say "not pregnant" but it says "pregnant, 1 -2 weeks" instead. Just imagine my surprise! I was head over heels and the day could not have pass any slower. I just could wait for the day to end so that I can come home and start talking about babies with D.r R! D.r R was away for work at that time of course. And as much as I want to give hm the grand surprise, I was too excited to contain myself from blurting it out! (First time mommy. Excuse me please :p)

The moment my life is changed forever :)

I know it is such a cliche when someone says that her life change the moment they found out they're going to be parents. Cliche or not, that is exactly how I felt. Still feel even. And believe it or not, I still have a hard time believing that I'm going to be a mom in just a few months away! My baby has the habit of poking me everytime I forgot that I'm pregnant and that I should not be doing certain things (Unintentionally of course! I'm still getting used to the idea of being pregnant ok? :p)

Say hello to our little miracle! :D

 

I pray that you can grow healthily in my womb right now baby. So sorry if I haven't been feeding you right lately but I'll try harder okay? I honestly can't wait to see you again at your next sonogram. And daddy and I have been counting down days until we can finally hold you in our arms and kiss those super tiny hands and feet! :D I love you so much sayang. And daddy loves you just as much as well. So grow well in there okay? *lots of kisses!* :-*

of wedding preparations!

Hello peeps! :D Sorry it's been a really really long time since my last update! I know it didn't look like as if I'm coming back to the blogging world (considering my last post was during the last week of puasa! :p)

I have been busy. Yes, very busyyyyy! This month by far has got to be the busiest month in my year. I have all my weekends fully book. And all my nights in front of the computer. And definitely the most stressful month in the year! Well, so far at least. I predict it'll be more hectic and stressful as the day pass by!

As you all know, I'm now happily and blissfully engaged. And insyaAllah, will be getting married this year as well. Looking at the calendar, I have less than 90 days to go to the wedding. That's about three more months people. THREE MORE MONTTTHHHHHHHSSSSS!!! *faints*

Engagement album dah siap! :D

 



I finally went for my kursus kahwin yesterday and the day before! *poms-poms* We've been delaying the thing since I don't know when. Dr R insisted of going again (despite having the cert already from years ago), so I have to wait and fit my free time into his tight schedule. All that's left now is wait for him to submit his application form for bernikah and I can proceed with my application!

Sijil kursus kahwin! :D

Other preparation for the solemnization are:

1. Find inai person! - Any recommendations?
2. Send my nikah baju to the tailor - I have not send my kaen to be made into a nikah dress yeeettt!!!! *hyperventilates*
3. Find a scarf and a veil!! - I'm hopeless when it comes to the tudung bit -__-" Please recommend! *puppy eyes* :p

With all the hectic-ness going on, alhamdulillah we have a few things that can be crossed off the list.

1. Theme colour and design of the nikah pelamin
2. Theme colour and design of the reception pelamin - they were super nice to throw in another 'thing' into my package free of charge! :D
3. Baby sister just booked her dress as my maid of honour on the nikah day. So now I can tell my bridesmaids their theme colour! :p 
4. Picked out the songket get measurements taken for the groom side's reception.
5. Finalise design and colour for groom's pelamin!
6. Finalise design, colour and font for the wedding invites! - waiting for the real mock invites je! :D

Meeting the pelamin and baju people for the groom's side! :)

 

My songket!!! :p

 

Having all that being said, I could not have done all this without the support of my parents and my loving partner. In the two days of having him around, we have successfully settle 6 things! Today of course, I woke up really late (slept like a baby now that my stress level has tremendously reduced!! :p)

The two days of kursus and settling wedding things was extremely tiring. But it's even worse for Dr R. He has to drive everywhere for the last two days, drove back to Johor very late last night (around 11.30pm) and woke up as early as 5am this morning for work!! And today, he still have time to text me and give me his opinions on the wedding details at work and be as supportive as any excellent fiance would be. I seriously have no idea how he does it!!

 Mamak session

Celebrating getting the kursus kahwin sijil cum meeting the wedding invites person :p

I seriously am a very blessed girl to have such an amazing partner as Dr R. Thank you for making the most stressful time bearable and worth it. I love you so much sayang :) I pray that the bond that we've built together continue to blossom, blessed by Allah and will last till Jannah :)

I love you! :)

Of the coming September!

Just realize that I have roughly 120+ days more to go!! *hyperventilates!!!*

Definitely freaking out as there are so many unsettled things!!

But the plan is, to get everything done by end of September (which is by then I need to fill in the permohonan untuk bernikah borang thingy :p)

Definitely feeling nervous and all stressed out! But just thinking of all the hantaran shopping makes me feel all giddy! :p he-he

Get your credit card ready D.r R! Coz we're going shopping! :D *put on walking sneakers* :p

Of being super excited!

I know how 'gatal' I sound whenever I sing or say out loud in an extremely excited voice while dancing "I'm getting married in X monthssssss!!" :D But I honestly don't care! My baby sis tho might find this super annoyingggg as I sang it everyday :p he-he

I am super excited that it's only X months left to the wedding! *jumps up and down* :D

A

Wedding month, please come sooner!! I can't wait to be married to D.r R (and get off from work for three weeks! :p)

And owh! I wish I can cut myself into 5 pieces to get all the wedding-to-do-list done by August! @.@

Booked!

I've been staring at the white screen for a couple hours now. I've been thinking on how to write my special post. And I only realize now that no matter how I write it, it will always be special to me. Reason why? It's my official entry of my engagementttt!! :D Yes people!! You heard me right! :p

Alhamdulillah, I am blissfully engaged!

It all went down on last Saturday around 11.30am. 23rd June 2012 :) I experience a number of new things that day. 

1. Get my face all coloured up with make up :p

2. Had to pose in front of the camera (it's was really awkward at first! -____-")

3. Become someone's fiancee! :p

I still feel giddy every now and then when I look over on my fourth finger and see my engagement ring. I still can't get over the fact that I'm engaged! And yesterday, our official phhotographer put up some of our pictures on that day! *poms-poms* :D We can't stop looking at them! :D Let see some of the pictures shall we?

Owh waiittttt!!!! I have to put this one thing in writing! At 1030am, my hantaran dulangS still wasn't ready!!!!!! My sis reached our place at 10.30 and brought flowers for the rest of the dulangs! -_____-" Initially, we had flowers for the dulangs. Then halfway of doing it (at 11pm on the 22nd June!), the flowers ran out. Had to wait for the stores to open, my kakngah to come over from Bangi, buy the flowers and come home to decorate the dulangs! :p Thankfully, we managed to get things done by 11-ish :p Yes, no more last minute things for the wedding after this! :p

Okay, back to the pictures! :D 

Getting ready for the ceremony :)

 D.r R, Baby sis and me!

This is my favourite picture so far :)

 While waiting for the D.r R's family

D.r R's mom :)

  Picture credits to baby sis! :)

With granny :)

 

The new-excited-engaged couple! :D

Thank you mom and dad for supporting me and D.r R after all this while and with all the ceremony. We really owe you one! And I pray from here now on, that my relationship with D.r R will last as long and as happy and yours and dad :)

Of the ex-boyfriend!

23rd June 2012
With the ex-boyfriend

of being pre-booked!

I've been wearing this ring for exactly 6 months and 2 weeks. It's a ring given by D.r R when his family came over last December to ask my hand in marriage.

And we've been so blessed over this period of time. We do argue a bit a lot sometimes most of the times. I know that we haven't had the most smooth sailing as we wanted it to be. But we have never ending support and super love from both our families.

I am very excited to take the relationship to the next level. Not long to go till I end my boyfriend-girlfriend era with D.r R.

Thank you baby for being the best guy for me. And thank you for loving me all this while and actually inderstand me and accept me for who I really am.

Who would have ever thought that I'm pre-booked by my standard six classmate who I've lost contact with for the last 12 years. And believe it or not, I was his first love crush. And I feel so lucky that he's been such a great person to me. And I am so thankful that I'm marrying you someday D.r R :)

I love you D.r R! ;)

Of five more days!

Just five more days left. Five days peeps! Fuhh! *sweats*I know it's only a small step of the whole picture, but I'm definitely excited about it. I've been having butterflies in my tummy for the whole week last week. And will definitely continue through out the whole week.

I really wish I don't have to go to work this coming week and the following week. I'm so not in the mood to go to work! :p And, I have errands to run before Friday! I need to remember to go:

1. Send off my handbag

2. Pick up the chocolates

3. Get the ring shined, resize (I hope not!!) and engraved!

 4. Buy the chocolates

5. Pick up the flowers

6. Cut my nails

7. Go and get manicure and pedicure

8. Get a massage (if I have the time)

9. Remind the photographer

10. Get my hair trimmed a bit

I hope everything's going to go well. I'm too nervous to even think about it!! I can't wait to step in into the next phase of the relationship! :D

I love you lots sayang! :)

countdowns!

Countdowns:

3 days to baby sis coming home!

4 days until peak season's over at work! *wweeeeeee!*

7 days to celebration *remind me to only order low calorie fruits and veges :((*

12 days to annual leave! *yay-ness!*

13 days to manicure and pedicure *slabs lotion on hands and feet* :p

13 days left to freak out! *sweat a bucket*

14 days to pure bliss! :)

Home soon sis! I miss you!! :(

Nest Hunting part IV

I went nest hunting again with my parents yesterday. But the difference is, I made a booking yesterday :)

Alhamdulillah, we both think we've found the right house to start our life and build a family :) I'm psyched! But also, nervous and scared! *bitting nails* 

We had a long talk about our future together. Mostly, talking about financial now that we're taking a huge loan for the house *$_$* 

We also talked about how after the wedding, I'll be 100% under his care. And that I will depend on him and only him once I'm his wife. One of the biggest responsibility that he'll have to bear once we're married. And I'm so glad that he's not scared of the responsibility. Alhamdulillah, I'm a lucky and very blessed girl :)

I hope and pray that it'll be a smooth sailing for the both of us from now on to eternity :D

 

P/s: Looking forward to raise Rizal jrs and Izy jrs in the house! :p

nest hunting part III

D.r R and I went for nest hunting again yesterday. Just so you know, it was bloody exhausting! But super fun and exciting. My mind kept on repeating the same moment we had yesterday for the whole day today at work. We both fell in love with the perfect house around 3pm yesterday. 

It was superbly gorgeous and spacious. I love the housing area very much! It's quiet, very serene and wisteria lane-ish :p The viewed two houses at that area. And I fell in love the moment we step into the first house. My first reaction was "cantek!". Had a full tour of the house and was happy with the house. The only downside was the kitchen. It's was a bit small for me I've always wanted a spacious kitchen where I can do my experimenting cooking and baking both by myself and with the future I.zy Jrs. InsyaAllah one day :) But nonetheless, was absolutely satisfied with the place! :) 

Then the agent took us to another house just a few blocks away (a different model than the first one). And the moment I stepped in, my thought was "home". I didn't have to the tour to realise that I want the house so badly. Everything was super perfect! And having the right size of kitchen was an upside :) 

But the only thing is, we can't afford it now :'( I know I might be over reacting, but I can't stop this crushed feeling that I have in my gut. It's not fair!! :( I love that house so much, that I feel that it's not fair that we can't afford it. D.r R have been an angel through all this, and ensuring me that if it's our rezeki, that the time will come. 

And I'm praying and hoping silently, that it will, insyaAllah.

of leaving the nest

There will be one point in life where you have to make big decisions. Like, who to marry, what kind of job/life you want, when to start finding your own place.

And here I thought, I have all the things in life all figured out. I mean, it always feels like home where ever I'm with my parents, but lately I realise that I've open my heart to a second home. It's where D.r R is. It feels like home when I'm with him. With that in mind, I never really care where life takes me. And I especially don't care where our future home will be. 

But in reality, it does!!

We went nest hunting yesterday (Gosh, I sound so adult-ish typing that one out! :P). It has been in our plan for quite some time now. And we (when I say we, I meant me :p) have been checking out suitable home for us and D.r R & I.zy's juniors :p 

Now that I've actually went to see the places, I suddenly realise that where we live do matter! I know where I'll be working for the next 7 years (Thanks S* for giving me a job for at least another 6 years and 6 months! :p), so it makes calculating daily commute quite easy. Let's just say that the daily travel is going to fork more than a third of my salary a month (i'm just guessing, haven't really calculate it).

Our policy is that our home need to be close to one of our work place. But the thing is, we don't know where he'll end up yet n kl! So it'll be such a waste if we buy the place, and ended up working so far away from it. What we want is super simple! Trust me, I can make it in just 5 points.

Point 1: It needs to be in our price range

Point 2: Near to either of our work place OR in the middle of both of our work place.

Pont3: Not in an extremely remote area (D.r R's scared of the ghost :p)

Point 4: Definitely need to be in klang valley area (Kuala Selangor is a no no! :p)

Pont 5 : Have enough rooms for the future D.r R and I.zy's juniors :D

See! Easy peasy 5 points! :p

i love you :)

I had quite an emotional Saturday today. D.r R is super busy at work for the past 4++ days and we haven't been able to talk to each other as much as we used to. And don't worry, I'm not emotional because I miss him so much or anything. I'm being slghtly emotional because I am very happy.

I never imagined that I'll be and get to this stage of life before. I spent the whole day just thinking of how much I've achieved so far. I cannot express how lucky I am to have such an amazing and loving parents, and siblings. They have been with me since my day 1 on earth. They never turned their backs on me and have always always been there for me, no matter what, when and where.

And as I turn 24 last year, I finally found my long lost soulmate. I knew he's the one the moment I went out with him. I know this may sound super cliche, but it's true. It doesn't take a month, a year or five years to figure out if he's the one for me.

Alhamdulillah, our relationship is still going strong up to this day. I could not ask for a better partner than him. Well technically, I could. But I don't want to. His imperfections and flaws makes up him. Who he really is. And he is the only one that I need and want, today, tomorrow and for the rest of my life (again, sorry for being so corny. He makes me corny -_-")

I love you D.r R. And I'm ready to take the next step with you. And I want to spend the rest of my life with you as your wife one day insyaAllah (will you marry me one day pretty pleeeeaaassseeeeee *puppydog eyes* :p)

Thank you for coming in to my life after 24 very long years (technically 12 years since we last see each other :p). And thank you for making me the happiest I've ever been in my life. I love you :)

the first step!

I'm so excited that Friday is here (despite the fact that I have to work tomorrow). But seeing D.r R after work and spending the rest of the weekend with him would make it all worth it! :D

We have tons of things planned out over this very very short weekend. I really hope that I can get a few things ticked off in the list, so that we'll be able to move forward. For the time being, everything is in the planning phase. InsyaAllah tomorrow will be the start day of the plan execution! *cross fingers*

Thanks for sacrificing your time and energy for the past three days of super super long hours of work just so that you get to spend two days with me! I am extremely lucky to have you as my partner D.r R! :) 

 

I absoloutely love you sayang! :)

 

p/s: I haven't decide whether to cut my hair or not tomorrow. Dilemma!

A fresh start!

New site! It's like breathing fresh air  :D (Okay, that's a lie. It feels just the same :p). But anyhoo, how's your weekend so far? Mine's been really great! Filled it with a (yes, singular) really awesome thing with both of my parents! :)

I'm still trying to grasp the whole situation in my mind. I have to admit it still feel soooo unreal! But when ever I say it out loud, I can't help feeling this jittery and butterfly in my tummy. And when ever I say it to D.r R, I'll be all giddy and super excited (like jumping in the air excited!), while he gives me this innocent-expressionless expression! *ketuk kepala* :p

I'm really glad and extremely grateful that I have two very supporting parents to help me get through this whole phase, both in moral support and physical (read:financial) support! :p ehehe. But seriously, I would go crazy if I don't have you two in my life!! Million thanks to you both, and please make sure that I treat you guys for your n-th honeymoon somewhere really really nice when all this is over okey? :D

p/s: Guess where I was today? :p

pp/s: have a relaxing long weekend ahead! :)